Ummm...err....uh....hi.

I'm shy. I don't like talking to people I don't know. I'm not good at being that person that goes up and introduces herself to people and just starts talking to them, though I wish I was! I've always been envious of those outgoing people, always wished I could be one of them. Over this past year I've finally begun to realize that I can!

I read something once that said being shy is just being selfish. Now I had never thought of it that way. For me, being shy was the only thing I could be! It was just who I am. But I've come to realize that's not true. I have the choice to keep to myself where I feel comfortable or I can take a step out of my comfort zone (and for me that's a REALLY big step!) and talk to people.

I had never thought it was possible until a little more than a year ago......I found out something about one of my friends that I had never known before. This particular friend is one that I have always admired because she is so friendly and outgoing and super sweet. I found out that she was really shy when she was younger but she made the decision to make herself step out and talk to people. I couldn't believe it that one of the people I had admired for so long because of her friendliness and openness struggled with the same problem that I do! It encouraged me that maybe, just maybe, I could be a little more friendly too.

I struggled with this a LOT my first semester at college. I had a really hard time getting to know people in my classes unless they were super outgoing and would talk to me first. I still do struggle with this, but I have come  a long way!

Today for lunch I had 2 hours to kill just hanging around at school, so I had told a friend of mine I would meet up with her and we decided to hang out then. I went over to meet her at the campus center and she had several friends there with her that I hadn't met. A year ago I would have freaked out and probably would not have said a word the entire time I was sitting there. But today, there were about seven people at that table that I didn't know, and only one that I knew.....but I talked with them and got into the conversation and I actually had a good time! I know this probably sounds stupid to most of you, but that is a HUGE deal for me! I don't just hang out with people I don't know, much less actually enjoy myself! It's amazing what taking a step out of your comfort zone can do! It's really hard, but totally worth it in the end!

First day of school!

I was really dreading my first day of school today....and I just got back from one of the best days of school I've had in a looong time! I knew people in all of my classes and my classes were all fun too! Just walking around campus I ran into a bunch of people I knew. And I'm also not a freshman anymore!! That's pretty cool too. :) I'm actually starting to get a little excited about this year...can't wait to see what it holds!

A few more pics...

A few more pics from Belize :)

THE BEACH:

This is Punta Gorda, a town on the coast that we went to Sunday after going to the Mayan ruins.

These two pics are from Jaguar Reef 

Gorgeous! 

CREATURES: 

Tarantula

Centipede thingy...we found these in Bella Vista

A lizard...of some sort. 

I think this is the bat that was flying around in the girls room the first night at Dump. Fastest way to get a room full of girls to scream: throw a bat in with them. :)

More pictures!

Here are some more pics from Belize! :) 

PICS WITH FRIENDS: 

My friend Claire and I at the Mayan ruins

More ruins :)

Late night silliness :) 

Me and Jordyn on the golf cart in Hopkins (the town where the resort is located)

Me and my friend Kaylee :)

BELLA VISTA: 

Hermias, Barnaby and Elias with a friend

Bracelet making

Alisia being a little monkey :)

Walking through Bella Vista with Amilia

BELIZE SCENERY: 

I love the palm trees!! 

These pictures make me miss Belize even more! :) I'll try to post some more pics tomorrow...

Belize 2011-Summary

So, our trip is over, we all made it back safely and I'm pretty sure we all had a blast! In some ways, it's kind of a letdown...I already miss it. I really hope that God will allow me to go back, but one thing I've learned from this is the most important thing is to follow where God is leading. Running ahead on my own accomplished absolutely nothing. It was only when I stepped back and started listening for what God was saying that things began to happen.

I learned a lot on this trip, a lot that I think could impact the way I live my life from here on out if I continue to listen to what God is saying. It's a bit intimidating but also exciting to think of where He might lead me next! One day at a time, following Him.....

"Freedom gained in what is lost, My life I’ve found in you
The greatest gift you’ve given me, I am ready… God I will Go
I give my life,  give my heart, everything I am God I’m all yours… I’m all yours
Where you lead me I will go I will follow you and know I am yours
There’s nowhere I would rather be than with you for all to see I am yours.
I am yours"
- I Am Yours by Jordan Howerton Band

Here is a video summary of our trip in Belize. Enjoy! :)

Belize 2011-Day 6

Thursday, August 4, 2011

My devotion this morning said to write in my journal about some of the changes I’ve experienced and some of the changes I need to experience. So here goes:

As far as changes to my perspective, I can’t help but see how selfish I am! I am constantly fighting my selfish desires this week. I think God is showing me who I really am, deep down, if I don’t let Him change me. Well I’m done with that! I’m asking Him to do a work on my heart and to help me change to be more like Him. I want my heart to be a heart that is completely devoted to and completely in love with Him.

Just sitting here looking out the window, I am in awe of God’s creation! I can see the palm trees and the mountains in the background – it is breathtaking. I absolutely love it here! I took a picture of it, but it doesn’t do it justice.

God's creation is SO amazing!

Today is our last day at Bella Vista! It makes me a little sad. L Praying for opportunities to share God’s love today!

Later ~

This morning was wonderful – and sad at the same time. We started out by walking to a few people’s houses to pray for them (all three were battling an illness of some sort). When I’m in Belize, it’s so easy to just go and pray for them and expect God to heal them – it’s easy to have faith here. But back home if somebody is sick, we depend on doctors and medicine instead of relying on God. I know we have to do our part, and since we have the technology we should make use of it, but it feels like something is missing. Maybe it’s just the total dependence on God for what we need. Jeff had me pray for one of the ladies. That was nerve racking – the whole team (as well as several Belizeans) was standing there listening!

Alisia was there when we started walking around, and I looked for Amilia but I didn’t see her. So me and one of the other girls on the team walked with Alisia until we got over to the soccer field where a lot of the other kids were. Amilia was there and she spotted me right away and came right over to me. She stuck right by my side for most of the day. When it was time to leave she gave me like 3 hugs and we did our high – five handshake I taught her the other day. I told her I would pray for her and asked her if she would pray for me too, and she said she would.

After we left and got out of Bella Vista, I became kind of overwhelmed with emotion. I was kind of sad that we were coming to Jaguar Reef. I felt like if we couldn’t be in Bella Vista loving on those kids, then I just wanted to be at home. Anytime I saw people walking on the side of the road, it made me wish we could turn around and go back to Bella Vista – it made me miss the people of the village – even the ones I don’t know. My heart was (and still is) aching for the people – especially those precious kids!

Lester is one that I don’t think I mentioned the other day. He’s about 13 or so. He likes to pick at me because of my Spanish. Last night after the movie we had a conversation where we just went back and forth between Spanish and English. Usually making fun of my Spanish, no matter which language we were speaking in. J

Lester 

I personally love this pic of him :) 

Kevin has turned out to be a huge surprise this week! I didn’t find this out until this afternoon, and it made me practically stop dead in my tracks! Kevin is a boy that the trip from last month met. He’s 15 years old and he was the leader of a gang of boys in the village. This week he’s been following our group around, visiting with some of our team members, and sometimes getting involved in the activities with us. He has done a completely turnaround from last month! He was watching (and really getting into) the movie last night, and today he had a heart-to-heart talk with one of the adults on our team. We are praising God for the changes there! I will continue to be praying for him, that he will see God’s love through the things he saw this week and will continue to see it through Pastor Marcos and the church members there. If you think of it, please be praying for Kevin! He is a very influential person in that community and if he comes to Christ, he will bring several others with him!!

Kevin with our youth pastor, Tim

The lodge here is amazing! I’m glad we’re only here for one day, but I plan to enjoy it! This is probably going to be the most restful day for the rest of this whole year! 

 This is the beach house some of us girls stayed in at the resort.

This is off our back porch. Amazing!

The view out my bedroom window. Sooo pretty!!!

Belize 2011-Day 5

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

This morning we went to Bella Vista with the intention of passing out 5 pound bags of sugar to some of the families of the village (sugar is pretty scarce there right now and very expensive) and inviting people to come watch the movie at the church tonight. When we got there, Hermias, Barnaby and Elias were there with a few other kids. I like Barnaby – he is a major tease! There was also a sibling group of 2 girls and one little boy. The three of them, plus Hermias and his friend went with me and my team for the day. The two little girls were Amilia (the older one – 7) and Alisia. Their little brother was Victor (3). Alisia was switching between me and the other two girls on our team for a little while – she is a stinker! I call her “monita” – little monkey. J

Me with some of my favorite kids! From left to right: Victor, Alisia and Amilia

Amilia with her other sister, Andrea.

After the first hour – hour and a half Amilia began walking with me. For the last half hour we were inseparable! She told me as we were walking back to the bus that I’m her friend. I told her that she’s my friend too. J I said if she came back tonight for the movie she could sit by me. She said she would definitely come! She is such a sweet little girl! I really hope to continue building a relationship with her this evening and tomorrow before we have to leave. As God wills! May everything said and done be all for His glory!

Later ~

Just got back from the movie night a little while ago. It was a success! The weather was perfect (thank you God!!!) and we had an AWESOME turnout!! When we first left the compound, we made it about 5 minutes down the road before realizing we didn’t have the popcorn we had bought earlier this afternoon for the movie; so we pulled over and waited for Rafael t bring it to us. Two seconds after we pulled back out we realized we didn’t have the movie projector either! So we had to go back and get it and so by the time we made it to Bella Vista, it was already 7:00 and the kids were already there waiting for us. Lots of families began to show up too!

This is the movie we showed: The Secrets of Jonathan Sperry. It does a great job of fully presenting the gospel message. 

I looked around for Amilia, but I didn’t see her because there were a lot of kids there and it was basically dark already. (It was 8 p.m. central time here in the states.) A few minutes later a little girl came over to me and just smiled up at me – and I knew it was Amilia. She stayed next to me (or in my lap) the entire time. Alisia came over and sat with us after a while too. She eventually pushed Amilia out of my lap and fell asleep there. J The girls left before the movie was over, so I didn’t get to ask them about it – especially Amilia – she was really into it! I also didn’t get to tell them that we would be back tomorrow, so I hope they come out! I really want to see them again before we go. I wanted to ask Amilia what she thought of the movie and if she knows Jesus and how to talk to him. I wanted to ask her if we can pray for each other after I leave. I guess that is a conversation that will take place only if the Lord wills.

Tomorrow is our last day in Bella Vista. We are going to pray for a few people and maybe do a sports camp. I’m praying that God’s hand will be over us tomorrow, leading and directing us wherever we need to go.

Soli Deo Gloria!

Belize 2011-Day 4

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Today we went to Bella Vista again with the intention of reaching towards the children. We broke into teams and started walking around the village, meeting kids and telling them to come to the church after lunch for some activities. Our team became the “pied pipers” collecting more and more kids as we went.

Later, after lunch (which was made by the church ladies – empanadas – they were ah-mazing!), we helped finish cleaning out the church. Some of the men of the village had been working on the walls of the church building and so there was a lot of boards and stuff inside that needed to be moved, not to mention all the water and mud from the rain. After we finished cleaning it out, we had a bunch of kids come in (last count was 60-70!) And we made bracelets with them. That lasted for quite a while! I made several friends there. J One was a little girl that was 6 (I think) named Hayley, who only spoke Spanish. I helped her make her bracelet and talked to her in Spanish. She was really sweet!

Bracelet making

After we finished bracelet making one of the adults on our team told the kids a Bible story. He chose the story of when the disciples wouldn’t let the children see Jesus and Jesus told them to “let the little children come unto me”. The next verse says that Jesus put his hands on them and blessed them, so we had the pastor of the church there come and pray a blessing over the children. That was really neat! As Tom (our adult that taught the lesson) told the kids, Pastor Marcos is Jesus’ representative that God has placed in that village, so he did for the children what Jesus would have.

Tom telling the Bible story with some volunteers to act it out

Tomorrow morning we are going to distribute bags of sugar to several families, and then we’re going to go back in the evening to show a movie in Spanish. We are praying for good weather tomorrow evening!

God, please be with us tomorrow. May we sow some seeds for the kingdom. Please guide us and direct us in everything we say and do. Help us to stay focused on you alone. All glory and honor are yours alone! 

Belize 2011-Day 3

Monday, August 1, 2011

Today was our first day to go to Bella Vista and finally get to start meeting the people there. I got to use my Spanish several times today, which was really cool. A lot of the younger kids don’t speak English so I would translate for one of the other team members or just speak to them in Spanish. That was really neat!

One of the people on my team for that day got to have a conversation with a young girl about what she believes about Jesus and God. That was kind of cool! And there were a couple of other people that we met that we got to stop and pray for.

Some of my favorite children of the group were Noli, Cecilia, Madeline and their little sister (I can’t remember her name). They were the entertainers of the group! The girls were showing us how they danced and did cartwheels and the younger little girl showed us how she does the worm with her stomach. It was too funny!! 

Noli, Cecilia and their younger sister

Madeline with the younger sister

Then there was Hermias (our guide  - he knows the whole town and he speaks English, Kekchi, and Spanish) and his little brothers Barnaby (he was my favorite – MAJOR tease!!!) and Elias.

From left to right: Barnaby, Elias and Hermias

I personally love this pic of Barnaby because you can see the glint of mischief in his eyes. :) 

I’m looking forward to going back tomorrow to build some deeper relationships with these kids and some of the other people we met.

Another big highlight of my day: Rafael (the pastor here at the church at Dump) prayed for us for breakfast this morning and Tim asked him to pray in Spanish – and I understood almost all of it!!! That made me super happy! J

Another fun part of the day: I laughed until I cried playing telephone pictionary and psychiatrist with some of the other team members! If you have never played these games, then let me know and I’ll tell you how to play, because these are two of the most hilarious games I have ever played! We had a wonderful time playing them and also getting to know a little more about each other. J

God, thank you for good times with friends and time to build relationships with team members. God, please use us tomorrow however you will. Show us where to go and what to say. Help us to show your love to the people of Bella Vista, Lord. Amen. 

Belize 2011-Day 2

Belize Journal entry from day 2:

Sunday, July 31, 2011

The church service this morning was neat. It was so cool to worship with other believers of a different culture. It’s a little taste of what Heaven will be like, with people from all nations, tribes and tongues worshipping God.

This afternoon we went to the Mayan ruins. That was kind of neat. It was really nice just to hang out with the team and continue building relationships with the people we’re going to be ministering with this week.

Tomorrow we head out to Bella Vista to start meeting people. I’m really excited, but I’m also nervous. I’m not very good at conversing with people one-on-one – especially people that I don’t know. I’m praying the Lord will give me the words to say and show me where to go and that I won’t blow whatever opportunity He gives me. 

Belize 2011-Day 1

Belize Journal entry:

Saturday, July 30, 2011

As I write this, I am on the plane, about to land in Belize! I am so thankful for everyone’s prayers! So far, everything has gone extremely smoothly and I’m really thankful for that! I know, and continue to pray, that God will prepare the way for us in Bella Vista – I know He has a plan for us there this week and I can’t wait to find out what it is!

I’ve been spending the plane ride trying to sleep and brushing up on my Spanish – trying to prep myself for this week! J After we land, we’ll meet the Gaithers and get ready for the bus ride to “The Dump”. [The compound that we stayed at is in a small town called Dump.] I’m super excited!!! Already missing my family though. L More later.

Evening –

So, for my summary of my first day: I have had a great day! I have had a wonderful time building relationships with others on the team. The biggest thing I’ve noticed today is that it has been really hard for me to not be consumed with myself. I constantly found myself thinking things and then stopping and realizing how selfish that thought was. I have been battling pride and envy, both of which stem from a completely selfish heart. I’m asking God to work in my heart, to refocus myself on Him, so He can accomplish the things He wants to accomplish through me this week.

Tomorrow I’m going to start the day out with prayer and quiet time – something that didn’t get done this morning. I know that was part of my problem today. I didn’t start my day out by focusing on God, so I naturally turned my focus to myself.

Church tomorrow morning, then an afternoon to get rested up for the full week ahead! May all glory and honor for anything that happens on this trip go to God alone! Soli Deo Gloria!!! 

I'm back!!!!!!! :D

I am back in the states, safe and sound! Praise the Lord! We had very little (if any) logistical problems on the trip. Any flight delays and such ended up working to our benefit, so I am very thankful that God was working out the logistics! To tell you about my trip I'm going to begin posting some of my journal entries of the past week, hopefully with some pictures if I can get them uploaded! Stay tuned!

Belize Part 5- And So the Journey Begins...

God is good!!! I have a new goal: to memorize that passage from Ephesians 3 that I posted yesterday. That verse is becoming my theme for this trip. He IS able to do immeasurably more than we could ever ask or even imagine!!! To GOD be the glory forever and ever!!!

After going to the church to pay for my trip yesterday I found out that I have even more money for my trip than I thought; and so now I not only have what I need for my trip but I also have enough to bless someone else as well! I am so overwhelmed by all that God has been doing here!! As I was leaving the church, I got in my car and it started to rain. After weeks of triple digit weather with no rain, it was amazing! I was reminded of the story about the farmers who prayed for rain but only one of them actually went out to his field to prepare for it. I felt like when I signed on for this trip without worrying about the money, I was preparing my field and now I am receiving the rain! I drove the whole way home with my window rolled down, in awe of all God has done for me! I am so unworthy!!! Yet He still chose me!

God is working in mighty ways, folks! I know He is going to work mightily on this trip and I can't wait to experience it!

I probably won't have time to post tomorrow, so this is my last post before I get back! If you think of it this week, please be praying for our team and that God would prepare the way for us to share His love in Belize. When I get back, I'll post daily updates about our trip and fill you in on all the things we experienced. If you haven't already, you can sign up to receive updates by email under the "followers" section where it says "follow by email". I love you all and thank you so much for your prayers and encouragement! I'll see you all in a little more than a week! Hasta luego!

Belize Part 4- God Provides!

It was almost exactly 4 weeks ago that I signed up for this trip and began trying to raise the money. In those 4 weeks I have seen God work in amazing ways! I began raising money by telling everybody I needed babysitting jobs and Mary Kay orders to raise money for my trip to Belize. I got a few babysitting jobs in the first couple of weeks and a couple MK orders and my grandma also donated some money for my trip. 2 weeks into it and I had a little more than 1/7 of what I needed for my trip. One afternoon right around that time, I was starting to feel a little discouraged. I talked to my mom about it and she reminded me that God is "seldom early and never late" and that if I trusted Him to provide, then He would-but in HIS timing, not mine. A few minutes later I went to my room and I picked up one of my old purses that I hadn't cleaned out yet (I'm really bad about that...) looking for something random-I don't even remember what it was. Looking through that purse I found a little envelope with $84 marked "Belize Fund". It was money that I had started saving up in the spring when I thought I was going on the first summer trip. I truly believe that God led me to that money right when I needed it!

A week or so later, a sweet lady that I know from bible study classes that my family attends ordered some Mary Kay and wanted to meet up to give me the money. I met her and she paid me for the Mary Kay and then told me that she was going on a mission trip and had raised more money than she needed and wanted to donate to my trip as well! Her donation was an wonderful blessing! Once again, God had shown up and provided right when I needed it!

Several other people have since donated money for my trip and it was all out of the blue-things that I could only look at and say "God provides!" Then, about 3 days ago, I was counting up my money and saw that I only had $45 more that I needed to raise for my trip to be completely funded!!! I posted on facebook that I was almost to my goal. Less than 10 minutes after posting to fb, a very sweet lady that I call "Mama Peeps" (long story...) called me and said  that she and her husband saw my fb post and wanted to help me finish out what I needed. She asked me how much I needed and I told her. She said she would send it to me, and I hung up the phone thanking God!!!

A few hours later after work, I came home and checked my facebook. There was a message from my "Mama Peeps". This is what it said: "ok...so you know...We saved up "x" amount of cash to pay for [my daughter's] wedding...after everything was said and done and everyone was paid for, there was $45 left in the money envelope. Just happened to go look after you gave me what you needed. So we are sending you that cash. Isn't God pretty good!!!!! Yep, I think so!!!" I read this message, and I was literally speechless. I had tears in my eyes, I was so in awe of what God had done - for me!!! I still am!

That same day (before this message), I was super excited about having all the money, but then I started thinking about all of the extra money I would need (Belize charges an exit tax of $40, and there are 2 meals that we have to pay for on our own, and I would love to get some souveneirs for some of my friends and family though that's not a must!). But I caught myself thinking this and told myself that I needed to continue trusting God. That's when I got home and checked my facebook and saw that message. In addition to that message, I also had a Mary Kay order, someone who wanted to donate money, AND a card that had come in the mail with another donation in it. God is good, my friends!!!

And THAT is why I am excited for this trip!! I can see in the way that God has provided that He has big plans for this trip, and I can't wait to be a part of them!



P.S. At last count, I had almost $200 more than I needed for the trip!!! Praise God!! Soli Deo Gloria!! I'm reminded of this passage from Ephesians 3:
"¹⁴ For this reason I kneel before the Father, ¹⁵ from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. ¹⁶ I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, ¹⁷ so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, ¹⁸ may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, ¹⁹ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
 ²⁰ Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, ²¹ to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."

Amen.

Belize Part 3- Listen and Obey

After that experience that I shared yesterday, I dismissed the trips to Belize, knowing I wasn't going to be able to go. I began my summer classes and tried to put Belize out of my mind. A few weeks ago, I had gone up to the church camp for an evening and in the middle of chapel, my youth pastor came up to me and asked if I might want to change my mind about going for the second trip this summer-something I had never really considered. I had found out that I only had to take summer classes for the first summer session, which left that week in August open. I told him I would pray about it and let him know.

I spent that entire weekend praying about it and the next week I still didn't really feel a clear answer. The day before I had to tell Tim whether or not I could go, I spent 3 hours in my room, praying, fasting and reading my Bible. (I'm pretty sure that's longest period of time I've ever spent just praying!) All the things I came across in my Bible pointed to the phrase "follow me". I prayed and told God I was willing to follow, just show me where! I'm learning that God often wants us to follow without knowing where we're going-which is a really hard concept for me! I like to have everything planned out. But after praying some more and talking to both of my parents I really felt like God was allowing me to go.

As I was praying that day I began to realize some of the things that I shared the first day...how selfish I had been before on my trip. And the more I continued praying and examining myself and my motives I realized that my motives really are right this time: I want to go to be able to do what I could have done last time if I had been paying attention to God. I want to be able to reach people! I want the opportunity to share my faith-as much as that idea intimidates me! I really think that's why God is allowing me to go now, when He was telling me no before - because if I had gone in the beginning of July, it would have been with the wrong motives and God wouldn't have been able to accomplish the things through me that He can now if I keep my eyes on Him.

So, even though I had no money for this trip, I took a step of faith, trusting that God would provide the money and texted my youth pastor and told him I would go. Throughout this whole decision making process I never really considered the money when I prayed about it-I knew that if God wanted me to go, He would provide the funds for it. And He did!!! In miraculous ways!



**I would like to add a blogger's note here: I would never want anyone to look at this story I'm sharing and see anything that I've done - God gets ALL the glory!!!!

Belize Part 2- Trip Two, Take One!

As our church began planning several mission trips for this year, I decided that I wanted to go back to Belize. I had an amazing trip last time and though I did go with the wrong motive, I still learned a lot and I'm glad I went. So this spring I picked the trip I wanted to go on (the trip that went July 2-9th of this year) based on some other things I wanted to do this summer. I began babysitting to raise money for that trip and I collected some, but not a whole lot.

Then one Sunday at lunch my mom said something that stopped me in my tracks. She told me and my brother that it was great that we wanted to go back to Belize but she asked us if we had prayed about it to make sure it was God's will and not just ours. I realized that I really hadn't prayed about it, so from that point on anytime I thought about the trip, I would pray and ask God if He wanted me to go or not.

Over the next couple of weeks as I continued my plans for the trip, things kept falling through. Babysitting jobs didn't work out, I wasn't able to do some of the fundraising stuff with the church and then one day in April I got my answer. I was at school, about to meet with my advisor, when the trip came to my mind. It was kind of a random thing that popped into my head, but I stopped and just prayed about it, asking God that if he didn't want me to go, to make that clear to me. I met with my advisor and because of a really complicated chain of events (it's a long, very frustrating story) I found out I was going to have to take summer classes which were going to overlap with my trip to Belize. I left campus really upset, but I knew I had my answer. I continued to pray about it, but I knew I was supposed to stay here that week.

That next Sunday there was a meeting about the trip giving out some more info to the people who were going. I told my youth pastor that I couldn't go, and I didn't attend the meeting. That was one of the hardest things that I've ever done, because I really wanted to go on that trip! I knew I was doing what God was asking by staying, but it was still really hard!!

But, even though it was really hard and I was really disappointed by it all, I have seen Romans 8:28 and Jeremiah 29:11 played out in major ways! God still had a plan-I just had to be ready and willing to follow!

Belize Part 1- Last Summer

As some of you may (or may not) know, last summer I went on a mission trip to Belize. It was my first mission trip out of country, and I was super excited about it! (If you're interested in hearing more about that trip you can go to our blog to read some more about what we experienced.) The more I prepared for that trip the more excited I got! It was my first time out of country, only my second mission trip and it was a super neat experience!

Now, as I reflect on that trip, I'm finally beginning to realize how selfish I really was. The whole reason I went on that trip was because I wanted to go to another country and to experience another culture. And I did just that. But I didn't do it for the people, I did it for me. I never really shared my testimony with anyone on that trip - not that I didn't have the opportunity. But since nobody asked me point blank about it, I didn't go out of my way to tell them about God - even though that was the whole purpose of the trip!

God has really been working on my heart this summer and I see now that my motive for going last year was not pure - it was completely selfish. And that came into play again this past spring as I began to plan for a return trip to Belize....(more on that tomorrow.)

The Countdown Begins!

I leave for Belize in just 5 more days!!!!! For those of you who may be interested, I'm going to spend the next several days leading up to my trip telling you why I'm so excited for this trip and how God has been working to get me here! While I'm in Belize, I'll keep journal entries each day that I will post one day at a time when I get back, so you can hear all about my trip. You can follow my blog by email to keep updated. I'm looking forward to sharing with you all how God is working in my life!!